I’m on sabbatical leave this spring semester.
Forward to my origin
I will go for the next year
to learn Ifa computation,
in which my ancestors
have hidden the secrets of life
knowing that one day my eyes would open
and see the truth hidden in plain sight.
I’m going to study Ifa computation.
From one West African village to another,
I will study those things all my teachers declared devilish,
evil, forbidden, pagan, abomination, taboo and fetish.
I forgive my teachers because they did not act out of malice.
They just didn’t know any better.
They were just plain ignorant,
misdirected, simple but innocent minds.
But how will I learn to forgive myself
for not figuring out more quickly
that my teachers were wrong
to teach me that the ways of my ancestors
are evil and that civilization lies
in abandoning my organic indigenous ecology?